May 10th, 2003

2016, fenris + phoenix

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:sigh: nothing is... clicking, lately. or, amy said it best tonight, as our two-year dating anniversary came to a very unsatifying end (after I broke down crying; emotional wreck, anyone?) -- I need external rewards, and I'm not getting them. :/ I hate needing external rewards. I don't want to need them. I don't get where the need came from, other than the typical school indoctrination. But that shouldn't have done it. I had buffers! I had protection! I had my parents! :/