April 28th, 2002

2016, fenris + phoenix

sitting, doing nothing

I've spent the last few days "doing nothing" -- of course, nothing isn't nothing; it's doing web searches for no reason on no particular topic, reorganizing stuff that was doing just fine the way it was, *waiting* for some sort of inspiration to fall out of the sky. Sometimes it's just waiting for a conversation to fall out of the sky.

There's email that dearly needs responding to but I *don't want to deal with it.* "Don't want to deal with it" seems to be my mantra the last few days. I don't want to deal with anything.

I need to find my todo lists (or start a new one) and find *something* on there that I do want to deal with. If I can just work on something, the rest might follow, for a bit.

So many projects falling, falling, falling, WAITING for something. And obligations as well. The only things I've accomplished of late are the transient, insignificant sort. :whee: