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Amy just got the job at college of the canyons, which is where her dad works. So we'll be moving down there as we'd sort of planned, but we haven't planned shit.

Life changes.

This is going to be interesting.

What I expect is she'll head down there and I'll follow "in a while", so we can continue sort-of "raking in the bucks". And have more time to look for a house and more money to put down on a house and such as that. It would be nice to have a house with dsl prepped to move into.


It's only been two years in this place (two and a half), but I've really become entrenched--more so than ever before.

I came to Berkeley in the summer of 1995. I've been here "way too long", as much as I love the area. I've wanted to leave it for some time, but I haven't had the impetus.


Dinner and discussion.

I came home tired and grumpy and hungry. The hunger has faded a bit, waiting. The grumpiness is overwhelmed by the good news. But that just has me to a flat, neutral existence, especially combined with the tired and probably as well with the essentially hungry even if I'm not feeling it.

And I'm definitely scared.



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Aug. 3rd, 2004 09:07 pm (UTC)
It's normal to be scared of change, especially big ones like moving. But change is good. Think of yourself as a hermit crab--it's time for a new shell, right? Or you can stay in the old one and be uncomfortable and cramped and miserable. Yeah, the crab is vulnerable when it's wandering around naked looking for a new shell, but then it finds a new one and gets back down to business.

Or was that a cheezy analogy? I like it. :-)
Aug. 3rd, 2004 10:00 pm (UTC)
Change is good. I like change. I really haven't had enough of it lately. The fear is that this change locks me into less _future_ change. But the future is a far away and scary place, and I don't need to peer into it that much. :)
Aug. 3rd, 2004 09:13 pm (UTC)
this is the job she really really wanted, right? the one she was sweating? sweet! congratulations to her, k.

as for becoming entrenched--yeah, that's the part that sucks. you get used to your space, you feel comfortable in it, when you're looking for things, you know where they are (mostly), and then you uproot yourself. sigh.

my mantra? change is positive. change is good.

but in reality, change is rebuilding. hopefully, rebuilding something better. maybe amy will be more comfortable there, and life will get a lot less hectic for her. and you could spend more time together, relaxing. yes. nice change, very nice change.

(if that's how it plays out, anyway.)

Aug. 4th, 2004 06:15 am (UTC)
yep; she's been sweating this one for ages, sort of. and "like crazy" the last few days.

as for change, I'm all for it, except when that change locks you against other changes you might want (for instance, I don't like the idea of being stuck in los angeles the rest of my life. but. we'll see.) a lot less hectic will be nice. more room will be nice. a house will be nice. a home will be nice. yes, yes, yes.
Aug. 3rd, 2004 09:42 pm (UTC)
It's the End of an Era
Yeah. Things are gonna be different for you, too.

I'm in an unsettled bad mood myself. I need to let this particular mood pass; I'm just impatient for the rest of my life, making it hard to enjoy the here and now.

Guess I'll have to visit you in your new place, somewhere down the road...

Aug. 4th, 2004 01:31 am (UTC)
Sagittarius (November 22-December 21)
In the middle of a moonlit night last February, someone in the English town of Pembury sneaked into the yards of over a hundred homes and secretly planted an ash sapling in each one. It was hard work. The weather was bad and each tree needed a hole dug to accommodate it. Judging from your current astrological omens, Sagittarius, I believe you'll soon be the recipient of a gift like that. Other good surprises may be on tap as well, especially if you say a prayer in which you tell God or Goddess that you're ready, willing, and able to receive all manner of unexpected benevolence.

Aug. 4th, 2004 08:30 am (UTC)
It'll be fun!

I'm in the middle of a 3+ month move right now with a slight detour in Maryland (how screwed is that?)

Looking forward to finding a place to make home and feel comfortable and lie down and fall asleep... and cook... and sleep.... sleepy..... ZZZzzzzZZzzsleepZZZzzzZZZZzzzzzz
Aug. 4th, 2004 08:39 am (UTC)
where are you planning on winding up?
Aug. 4th, 2004 10:24 am (UTC)
Moving to Ventura city... maybe a little further south such as in Thousand Oaks or Simi Valley. Not too close to LA, not much north of Ventura. I like san luis obispo, so that would be ideal!
Aug. 4th, 2004 10:54 am (UTC)
college of the canyons

where's that?
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