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Hello World

It's been a long time. I've been busy and blah and busy and blah. Overall, I'd say my life is wonderful. There are up points and down points, more down points than up, and sometimes the littlest things can overwhelm me, but lately I've been able to see through the depressions to a bright and glorious future. Or at least to the next upswell, which may or may not be chemical, situational, or hypothetical.

Amy's been insanely busy, so there's not much to say on that front. We're still going ahead with things, and there have been fewer conflicts (though how much of that is because we see so much less of each other, and how much of that is apathy/despair on my part, and how much is just good relationship stuff, I couldn't say). If you've been playing along at home, nothing's been resolved, but. Whatever? :)

A while ago I promised myself this would be the year of computer games. Development, and the like. I'm four months in, and the only thing I've got to show for it is _falling up_, which I did the brunt of before the year started. I've learned a lot from it, but "product" matters, and I don't have anything else to show. Especially depressing is that it took tucows two and a bit months to finally review it, and the review was: "couldn't run. crashed on our system, tried three times. feel free to resubmit pending fixes." Life has been ... busy. I haven't been writing, really, or poeming. I've done the odd sketch, and finally managed to get some paintings out.

Beyond that, web development seems to be taking its toll. NFG, mypics, skwerms, inthegenes.com, speculativeliterature.org, ... It doesn't seem like that much. It really is, at least in terms of sucking time. And I have been spending a fair amount of time on NFG reading and voting and whatnot. That's an ongoing timesink that I prefer to think of as a labor of love. Issue 4 rocked my socks, overall. There are some, imo, absurdly juvenile design decisions the top brass went with, and I'm not happy about that, but all in all it's still a beautiful magazine, with content you by and large couldn't find anywhere else.

I suppose that's my life in a nutshell right now. Amy's sick, and due home in an hour; I'm making a huge pot of chicken-noodle soup. It smells good. =)

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lethie
Mar. 30th, 2004 05:47 am (UTC)
I'm glad things are looking up for you. Hang in there :).

AND, I like your icon :).
nightskyash
Apr. 1st, 2004 02:08 pm (UTC)
Doesn't it ever feel like there is too much stuff...?
kaolinfire
Apr. 1st, 2004 04:31 pm (UTC)
always. but I can't cut any of it.

and I'm always starting more. it's. interesting.
nightskyash
Apr. 1st, 2004 05:14 pm (UTC)
i need to find out what the fuck is behind...or beyond... all this stuff... it's buggin' the fuck outta me.

neh..
kaolinfire
Apr. 1st, 2004 05:28 pm (UTC)
"all this stuff" being "the daily grind"?
nightskyash
Apr. 1st, 2004 05:37 pm (UTC)
yeah... and all the goals and chores and money and emotions and conflicts and war and drugs and... stuff....

but the daily grind is a big part.... i was talking with this holistic chiropractor guy Joseph about it last thursday... its like... there has to be something else besides this crappy pattern... birth, school, more school, work, retirement, death.... its the same fucking thing over and over and over. IT SUCKS.

I want to overcome it... and it maybe like beyond my control, but im not gonna let that get me down... GR....

it pisses me off... that everyone does this... and its not the people that piss me off.... its the cycle...

like this whole society thing is so fucked... at this point its probably not changeable on a large-scale basis, but for a few, i think it could change...

i dont know... maybe im dreaming... but i know you have to understand what im talking about... i have spoken with you and related to you enough times to know that you see through this...stuff....
earthemp6
Apr. 2nd, 2004 06:55 pm (UTC)
did you get my email?
kaolinfire
Apr. 2nd, 2004 11:21 pm (UTC)
yes, justreplied. :)
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