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going going gone crazy?

My todo list isn't helping. I have stuff I need to do and I'm so overwhelmed. I'm so overwhelmed by my todo list that I can't even look at it--I have more on my plate that I can actively think of than I can deal with. I'm afraid to write it all down. Or... written down it doesn't look like anything (I can see it in my mind's eye, and hell, some of the things, maybe most of them, are written down anyway). I'd need to break what's written down into more and mroe and more and more parts, and then I'd be just about representationally ... complete/absurd/done/pointless *&#^$*#&$.

:takes deep breath:

[Globealive has a "blog". Should I link to it from the main globealive site? [blog.globealive.com? hmm. *can* I set that up? first try didn't work. I don't know named as well as I could. by far. No, I don't think I can. or at least, not to do redirects automatically in the named setup. I'll have to redirect with resin or something.]

I'm researching and writing and thinking. Primarily researching for my chaos class (see http://tentacle.net/wiki/ChaosAndTheBrain), but that's branching into other things. Globalive, Frobnik, poemranker issues... are all coming to some sort of... head. where I need to deal with "trust" and "social connectivity". and reading about that is flooding my brain and grinding me to a halt. but there's thoughts that need to be thought, problems to be solved "asap", and... and ... a..a. .a ...............................!

consider that a scream. I'm trying to.

then amy's gradebook needs work. it's. it needs some complex stuff kludged into it. it could be easy. I expect otherwise. lots of work to do simple things, all because it's being done with html. and even then, it should be easier because I'm using struts (haven't seen that mentioned in a while, eh?) but hibernate is causing me all sorts of headaches. except it's supposedly saving work, too. and I just can't tell. But I don't want to rip it out, because, well, that would take more work. I think. Especially right now, which is one hell of a time crunch.

Amy wants me to look at an apartment that's being shown today. she just called me. she's on her way into the city and couldn't stop to look. but I'm at home "with nothing to do", so I should be able to stop in. right. no, not as bitter as that sounds. it's not as lopsided as all that. but.

simple tasks?

simple tasks that I can complete in a reasonable timeframe and feel some sort of "tick tick tick" accomplishment for? anything? *yeargh*

I want to dissolve into sleep (I just woke up) or ... starcraft. or any other escapist thing. Which is utterly lame.


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Apr. 26th, 2003 08:30 pm (UTC)
tell me about it! i have to work to be happy, relaxation can be boring for me. but right now there is too much work, and the confusion is not how to do it but what to do first and how to finish it in time. sometimes i want to push the red button! nyaaahh!
Apr. 27th, 2003 10:20 am (UTC)
If I plan relaxation ahead of time, then it works (sometimes). Works best if the relaxation has me away from everything else (but not SO far that I couldn't work on something if I really, really got the urge), and always a notepad to write thoughts/ideas down on.

Also helps if the relaxation involves mildly strenuous physical activity, like backpacking. Funny, that. :)
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