:takes deep breath:
[Globealive has a "blog". Should I link to it from the main globealive site? [blog.globealive.com? hmm. *can* I set that up? first try didn't work. I don't know named as well as I could. by far. No, I don't think I can. or at least, not to do redirects automatically in the named setup. I'll have to redirect with resin or something.]
I'm researching and writing and thinking. Primarily researching for my chaos class (see http://tentacle.net/wiki/ChaosAndTheBrain), but that's branching into other things. Globalive, Frobnik, poemranker issues... are all coming to some sort of... head. where I need to deal with "trust" and "social connectivity". and reading about that is flooding my brain and grinding me to a halt. but there's thoughts that need to be thought, problems to be solved "asap", and... and ... a..a. .a ...............................!
consider that a scream. I'm trying to.
then amy's gradebook needs work. it's. it needs some complex stuff kludged into it. it could be easy. I expect otherwise. lots of work to do simple things, all because it's being done with html. and even then, it should be easier because I'm using struts (haven't seen that mentioned in a while, eh?) but hibernate is causing me all sorts of headaches. except it's supposedly saving work, too. and I just can't tell. But I don't want to rip it out, because, well, that would take more work. I think. Especially right now, which is one hell of a time crunch.
Amy wants me to look at an apartment that's being shown today. she just called me. she's on her way into the city and couldn't stop to look. but I'm at home "with nothing to do", so I should be able to stop in. right. no, not as bitter as that sounds. it's not as lopsided as all that. but.
simple tasks that I can complete in a reasonable timeframe and feel some sort of "tick tick tick" accomplishment for? anything? *yeargh*
I want to dissolve into sleep (I just woke up) or ... starcraft. or any other escapist thing. Which is utterly lame.